Limbo part two

I demanded a progesterone test Monday.

I got a call yesterday that they only run those on Monday mornings and Thursdays...so no results until friday.

Starting to get frustrated. Don't they know that after 4 years I will need faster answers than that?

Makes me think twice about staying with this practice for the entire pregnancy.

Limbo

And the wait is excruciating....

I called my doc yesterday and asked to have HCG and Progesterone tested. We've been trying almost 4 years for this and I just don't want to take chances or get hopes up if it's not real.


So after going to two labs yesterday I called to get results. The nurse said "well, it's positive but the number is low so we are going to have you go back in a week and do another blood test."

Wait, what? A week? So I asked what my numbers were. HCG was 59, they didn't do progesterone. "We'll be able to tell more in a week."

Gee, thanks. I"ve waited almost 4 years to see a positive and you are going to tell me this? Way to burst my bubble.

I called back later and insisted on having my progesterone drawn. I also had a friend look online (I was in an inservice all day) for HCG numbers. She found this:

At 14 DPO, the average HCG level is 48 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 17-119 mIU/ml.
* At 15 DPO, the average HCG level is 59 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 17-147 mIU/ml.
* At 16 DPO, the average HCG level is 95 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 33-223 mIU/ml.
* At 17 DPO, the average HCG level is 132 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 17-429 mIU/ml.
* At 18 DPO, the average HCG level is 292 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 70-758 mIU/ml.
* At 19 DPO, the average HCG level is 303 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 111-514 mIU/ml.
* At 20 DPO, the average HCG level is 522 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 135-1690 mIU/ml.
* At 21 DPO, the average HCG level is 1061 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 324-4130 mIU/ml. * At 22 DPO, the average HCG level is 1287 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 185-3279 mIU/ml. * At 23 DPO, the average HCG level is 2034 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 506-4660 mIU/ml. * At 24 DPO, the average HCG level is 2637 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 540-10,000 mIU/ml

So since I'm likely about 14 or 15 DPO (yes, I don't temp...it makes me insane) then I'm okay, right?

So now I wait. And I obsess about every twinge. And I tell myself that if it's not going to grow that I'll live.

Right?

Limbo

(and I thank anyone who commented! Who knew that people still checked on me? Gotta love those feeds huh?)

Day Two

Another test, a different kind. A positive, faint but there.

Still not 100% believing it...won't for a while I'm sure.

I'm going to call my doctor and ask for some blood work.

Cross your fingers, will ya?

Too scared to believe it....

Grant becomes Q-C March of Dimes Ambassador

Grant made the paper on Friday. Here's the link to the story. He is so excited to lead our March for Babies this year!

He was in a commercial to promote the walk. Last week while we were driving to the television station, we were talking about March of Dimes. He asked me "Mom, we are marching for all the babies in the world, right?" I told him we were. Then he said "Well Mom, if aliens have sick babies, I think we should help them too!"

He did a great job with the commercial. Apparently he has great timing. He learned his lines much better than I had anticipated and did a great job. They told us that it usually takes a few hours to do. We were in and out in about 45 minutes. Way to go Boo!

Please support our March for Babies. You can donate online at www.marchforbabies.org/grantsgang

Every little bit helps!

Rejected

I got a letter last week saying that I was not accepted into the Librarian Grant program.

I'm more upset about it than I had thought I would be. I really thought my application would be accepted. The letter said that they needed to look at the distribution of where the teachers will be so that the whole state gets even coverage.

I'm considering asking to join in the cohort and pay for the classes. Mr and I have to sit down and look at financials in order to do that. I would apply for loans, but it's a pretty penny. Yes, I'll get a raise with the degree, so it may even out in the end.

I've never really been rejected like that before. It is a jolt to be told "thanks but no thanks."

Blah. My mood matches the weather now.

Overwhelmed

Do you ever feel like you just can't keep up?

Lately this is all my life is about, trying to keep up.

So far this week, I have conferences at MY school, meetings downtown (one all day yesterday, one tonight), a city council meeting, a chiro appointment.

Tomorrow I have school all day, conferences as Boo's school and then after that I need to present at the Mother of Twins club for the March of Dimes.

Friday I have KDG round up and then I'm taking the rest of the day off...WHEW.

I'm not looking forward to the conference tomorrow. Boo's been kicked out of circle time or not done his work most of last week and this week. His teacher is back from maternity leave and it's not going well. He is now coming home and telling me how he is "not making good choices" every day. He tells me that school is "too much work." I'm frustrated.

My DCP tells me how wonderful he is there. He follows directions and makes great choices. He doesn't misbehave.

School is another issue altogether though. He doesn't want to do his work. He complains that it is "too much work." I'm torn.

As a teacher, I know the importance of following directions and doing what the teacher asks of you. But I also know that he's the youngest and he does NOT like to sit to write. He's very bright (even according to his teacher) He's complaining about going to school. One of my biggest fears is that he hates school. I DO NOT WANT that for him!! I'm so worried that this first experience with school is not good. Mr even got called at work about him last week. He shouted out "this is boring" during circle and flag time. He dumped his milk upside down at snack time and then wouldn't glue his puppet together.

We have been taking away "Speed Racer" (oh the horror for Boo!) and not letting him watch television if he gets a bad report, but at the same time, is it THAT important that he glue a page? Should it be THAT bad if he doesn't color his paper or write his "s"'s? Sigh....I don't know how much I should push about this. I'm considering suggesting another teacher/class...but as a teacher myself, I don't want to be THAT parent either.

How would you deal with this? How do you balance what you think is right vs. what the school is telling you?