Another, yes...that makes THREE, person I "know" through the boards has tested at 9dpo and announced a BFP. I feel like I am such a bitch because I just get frustrated when I see it. And you know what? I feel like everyone is probably wondering why I'm didn't immediately congratulate. I wonder if they think when I do that it isn't heartfelt enough. Yeah, I know...no one even notices probably, but still.
I get frustrated and mad and jealous. How nice to be able to trust a that "a line is a line." How nice to get excited so early. But I don't/won't/cant.
See I've had those cycles where I started testing at 8dpo. I was practically using a magnifying glass looking for a line. But when it doesn't show, ya know, it hurts. So I learned pretty quickly to wait as long as I could stand before testing. Less money wasted that way and less heart hurt, less stinging disappoinment at the empty space where a line should be.
I've also seen those faint lines. Guess what, a line isn't always a line. If you have to photoshop, backlight and squint to see it...you might want to think again. Sorry if that's blunt. See I have seen those lines and AF shows. I've even had a "not negative, not positive" blood test. Now THAT is fun huh?
I guess my problem is that I hate to see people hurt, including myself. So I learned how to insulate myself from that a bit. You don't trust everything right away. I've gotten excited about things before and had them fall through, not just in IF, but in other things too. You have to be careful, this is your heart. So I get angry when I see people set themselves up for hurt and pain. I don't see the point in it. If you know a train may come, if one is scheduled soon...GET OFF THE TRACKS!