Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Race to the finish....

You may not know but for several months now I've been working on getting in shape. My inspiration is my SIL who has lost almost 40lbs since the holidays. She is my best friend and if she can get into shape and start running, then I can too. I'm almost down to where I was before I stopped pumping in June of 2005. I had never been that thin before and I liked it. I hadn't gained THAT much, but even then I was flab to the BEEE! I've lost almost 10 lbs and am getting more toned.

I've been getting up at 5 on weekday mornings and either going to an step/interval class at the gym (MWF) or jogging (well, trying to ) 3 miles. Now, I need to clarify. I am NOT a runner! I cannot remember the last time I RAN an entire mile at once! I sort of started last summer. I'd go for a "walk" and then I decided to jog a block. By the end of the summer I could jog 3 blocks at a time. I quit over the winter. On St. Patrick's day, Christa came up to run the St. Patrick's Day race and I ran with her. I finished it in 37:54 or so. I've been dilligent about working out since.

I decided to run a 5k on Saturday morning. It took place close to my house so we walked there. Mr and Boo accompanied me. I did SO well the first mile! I ran the ENTIRE first mile without having to stop! Then I slowed down for the water station and my calf cramped up. :( Yep, leave it to me to get injured! I finished, jogging as much as I could. I even beat my time from St. Patty's day!! Official time was 32:53 (and it would have been faster except for the slowpoke blocking the finish for me!

The doc says it's a pulled muscle and I'm supposed to rest. Yeah, fun huh? Oh well, YAY me for finishing in a good time!

My progesterone check is tomorrow. I'm going in with a plan. I am going to tell the intake person that I refuse to be drawn by a trainee and ask for their most experienced person. There is NO WAY I'm going through THIS again! NO WAY!

I'm now in a quandry about summer plans. School is out soon...not soon enough, but soon. I had scheduled a trip to Baltimore to see Mr's family with SIL and Boo for Mid July. The thing is that it's Mr's birthday weekend and also the BMX Nationals at our track. In addition to that, if we move on to IVF, there's a good chance that we'll be a bit busy during that time. His other Aunt is thinking of coming to visit us then too but wouldn't if Boo and I were not here.

Do I postpone or go ahead with the trip? HMMM....do I just wait until next week to decide? I hate the waiting game, can't I just get to the finish already??

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Let's catch up, shall we?

I really need to work on updating things sooner. I just get so caught up in the everyday things that I don't get time. Please forgive me.

When we last met, I had talked with the nurse at the RE's office about this cycle. We decided upon the Clo.mid Challenge. She told me to make an appointment for "next week" to talk to the doctor. She transfered me to the front desk, who scheduled me for monday of the next week. (April 14th)

I went to pick up the meds and they called them to the wrong pharmacy.

We went to the appoinment but were pretty disappointed. I had to take a whole day off because the appt was at 11. I wouldn't make it back before noon. We saw the doctor for all of 15 minutes. He hadn't looked at my chart before coming in. When he did, he basically said "well, since it's only day 7, we know nothing. We have to wait until your day 10 blood work comes back. Since we don't have baseline info, we won't do a monitored cycle. After this month, we'll have to talk about IVF. Have you thought about it?"

GRRRR.....So I wasted a sick day for THIS? You can tell me nothing? ARG! If the nurse had told me not to schedule the appoinment until after day 10, I would have!

Then, on to day 10. I stop into the lab. They have no work order for the blood test. I told her what it was for, so she was at least going to have them draw the blood. My blood draw was horrible today! WHY OH WHY do they give me the trainees? This is the second time I got one in a week! I have bad viens, they roll and are very deep even though they seem like they are on the surface. I TOLD her that and she had the needle IN MY ARM for 5 minutes trying to find the vein! She called the trainer in and he just kept digging! ARGH! They finally switched arm and the trainer LEFT the room again! She got the vein finally but lost suction and had to call him back in.
Nothing like a little pain first thing in the morning huh?
I call the RE to tell them that they didn't call in the order. She said she'd check on it.

I called yesterday to check on my levels from thursday. The nurse told me that my FSH was fine, I had the numbers written down but I think they were 7.5 and 9.2. Then she told met to call around the time of a positive OPK and she'd tell me when to go get my progesterone tested. UMMM....we are doing IUI #4, not just waiting lady! I swear, I'm starting to get frustrated here!

Today the OPK was positive. So it's one last try for us. I don't really want to think about moving on to IVF. We've decided that we will, but it's still monumentally scary!

And that's all there is folks!

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Can I just say....

that after catching bits and pieces of Brothers and Sisters, I'm a little disgusted.

I know, I know that it's television!

But any baby born 10 weeks early doesn't get to be held and rocked by her mother, in her mother's hospital room, without tubes or IVs or anything after what, a day or so.


Not happening in any NICU that I know of!

Give me a break.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Survey says....

I'm taking the Clomid Challenge! Will I pass?

I called the RE's office today because I decided last night that I didn't want to wait until monday to find out what we are doing. Monday would be day 7 and too late to start Clomid if that's what we were doing. After talking to the nurse, I realized that we were not all on the same page! It's a damn good thing I called.

She told me that we were doing the Clomid challenge and that I should start taking the Clomid tomorrow and they would do bloodwork on day 10 and possibly an ultrasound on monday.

Well...don't you think I should have a Rx for the Clomid then??!!?? Yeah, see that's why I was calling...HELLOOO in there!

So 100mg of Clomid starting tomorrow it is! Yipee...fun times!

On a humorous note, I had emailed Mr from school and told him what was up. He emailed back asking "What are we challenging?" I replied back to him "my ovaries to see if they work." My co-teacher decided at that moment to read over my shoulder and gasped out loud. She turned all shades of red and said "I guess that will teach me to read over your shoulder huh?" It was a funny moment though. (you might have had to be there)

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Rumble Rumble Crash

As Boo would say when we read one of his favorite books "Rumble Rumble Crash Crash"

AF showed this morning in full force.

I talked with the nurse today. She said that my progesterone 7dpiui was 2.4. Now I know that clear as day there were DARK lines on that OPK. I was told not to start using the OPK's until day 12 and that's when I saw the dark lines....dark on one side, light on the next...but there nonetheless.

Anyway...I insisted on day 3 blood work and we have an appointment on monday to see the RE. No idea what we'll do next...want to take a guess?

  1. Another cycle of Clomid/IUI
  2. A monitored cycle of Clomid/IUI
  3. Move on to IVF
  4. Some other option (elaborate please)

Monday, May 7, 2007


**I might be venting my frustration here, watch that you don't get any on you!**

I got a message on the machine from the RE today. I had progesterone drawn saturday. The message said "Linda, we got your progesterone levels back and they look pretty low"

Low? Could you specify HOW low? Must I guess?

"So you should call us with a positive urine test or the first day of your period."

This is the STANDARD answer you ALWAYS leave...if it's "pretty low" the there won't BE a positive urine test now will there!?!?


I'm calling tomorrow for details and demanding day 3 bloodwork. They told me I didn't need it last month even though I've NEVER had it done.

AHH...see, the safety ropes would come in handy right about now!

Friday, May 4, 2007

So my Chiro thinks I'm pregnant.

After lifting steel picnic tables in order to hang banners at Walk America this weekend, my back was sore. I decided to visit my friendly neighborhood chiro (or "chiro tractor" as Boo would say.) Our conversation went something like this:

C: So, what do you know?
Me: My lower back hurts.
C: What happened?
Me: I think I lifted too many tables at Walk America.
C: Oh that was this weekend wasn't it? How was the walk?
Me: I didn't actually walk, we had a doctor's appointment.
C: Are you pregnant? You are, aren't you?
Me: No, you know we've been trying for a long time now. We had an IUI on Saturday, our third actually. If this one doesn't take, then we'll most likely look into IVF.
C: That stinks! You had to deal with Boo being a preemie and now this? You didn't have troubles with Boo did you?
Me: No
C: You know, I think you are pregnant now. I can feel it. It sounds wierd, but I usually know before my patients do and I think you are. I had a patient that kept telling me that her ears were full. I knew she was pregnant before she did. She called me the next week to tell me I was right. I bet you are pregnant right now! You call me when you find out.

Ummm...not sure how I feel about this. I love my chiro, she's wonderful and a sweetheart. But can she know? Do you think she can? Am I starting to get my hopes up?

Dammit, I hate it when I get my hopes up. It's like slowly climbing a steep mountain, one step~one labourious step at a time. You let a little hope in, then another and just one more. You don't think you can do it, but you do. You try not to, but you let that little light in, one ray at a time. You are nearing the top, it's right there in your grasp. You all out reach for it when you temp goes down and the cramps come. Suddenly all goes dark, like an avalanche has hit you, engulfed you in its debris tumbling you down down down into the arrival of AF and it's aftermath.

My question is, why aren't there safety ropes for this journey?